Day 43: Up, Down, In Between

When I began this blog I weighed 250 lbs and had a strong motivation to lose weight. In the first week I shocked myself with a 10 lb weight loss. Unfortunately the next few weeks coincided with the holiday season and those 10 lbs were easily put back on.

With the New Year and a new perspective I began to exercise and eat healthy but my motivation wasn’t nearly as strong as it was in the beginning. I was determined to move forward but this time at a slower pace. Lately it seems that my motivation to exercise and eat healthy has been up, down and in between.

Some days it’s like I’m bursting with energy and I’m willing to climb stairs, run laps or hike mountains. Other days I can’t find an ounce of motivation to do anything and I spend my day indoors in front of the television. I need to keep my goal at the forefront of my mind.

Eating healthy has been up and down also. I tend to eat pretty well in the morning and afternoon but as the evenings roll around I’m more prone to give in to my cravings. It’s not that I’ve been eating terribly unhealthy but I could be doing better.

Weight loss progress: As of today I weigh 245 lbs. My weight loss in on par with my motivation and discipline. Up, Down and In Between. I’ve lost 10 lbs, gained 10 lbs and lost 5 lbs. Some progress is better than no progress I  guess.

I’ve been bike riding a lot lately. Thursday I biked six miles between home and campus. Friday I biked two miles in the morning and then walked another three miles in the afternoon. My movement for today was zero miles. I tried to plan a hike with some of my classmates from Spanish class but it fell through.

I have to ask. What motivates you? How do you stay on track? What do you tell yourself when you don’t want to exercise or when you’re tempted to eat something which might not be to your benefit?

Day 8: Where is my motivation?

Is it possible that I’ve already run out of steam? Suddenly I have no desire to exercise and I see no reason to watch my calorie intake. Today was a lazy day, just like yesterday. I sat around the house watching television, playing on the computer and eating. I’m not really eating bad foods but they’re not good foods either.

Yesterday I cooked two quesadillas with chicken and pepper jack cheese. Today I had two Eggo waffles with butter and syrup, a corn dog that I baked in the oven and snacked on those grab bags of chips that usually go into my kids lunch boxes. I woke up at 2 am to use the bathroom and then found myself standing in the kitchen eating a cookie with my eyes closed.

This morning I had two slices of wheat toast and two eggs fried over easy. Maybe I’m just making up for all the food I haven’t been eating this week. Perhaps I should stop trying to eat less and just try to eat more foods that are healthy. I think I over did it this week, especially day 6 with the intense exercise and just wasn’t getting enough fuel to feed the fire.

Today I diced up a can of Spam and sauteed it in a frying pan with cayenne pepper. Then I made a plate of nachos with tortilla chips, pepper jack cheese, the seasoned Spam and baked them in the oven. Spam Nachos!? It sounds like something a stoner or a pregnant lady would eat.

It’s been raining a lot over the past two days so I haven’t been able to go walk, run or bicycle. It sounds like a great reason but it’s actually just a lousy excuse. I still have my weights in the bathroom and the stairs aren’t going anywhere. I need to get my motivation and determination back!